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I have once again arrived at the realization that I get myself involved in (too) many commitments. Why do I do this to myself? Is this a defense mechanism or am I greedy? Or do I just really, genuinely want to do everything that I am doing? Or am I doing things to satisfy others? Or perhaps to uphold reputation? Or maybe I really think that I am the one that will make the difference? I was thinking about this earlier today: I honestly cannot even imagine how I would approach my day-to-day life if I had only one commitment to handle…for instance, if I only had schoolwork to deal with, I think I would go nuts. This really seems ridiculous but it is the absolute truth. Ever since midway through high school, I’ve adopted this lifestyle and a mindset of excelling, excelling, excelling Maybe I just need some sort of vacation to disengage myself from everything I’ve become attached to….a sort of hiatus if you will. Don’t get me wrong, I am very thankful for everything and thank God for all that has crossed my path in life…it’s just a matter of how I approach things and how I handle the overall picture. It’s all very distracting and it’s a challenge. Life’s a challenge. I like a good challenge. Life is good.

bleh. to all those who I’ve treated inconsiderably due to my tight schedule…i hope you understand that I’m thankful and pls don’t misinterpret any lack of interaction…best.

nighttt

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